November 2021 - Life changes in a second!

It has been well over two months since my last entry and the title of this thread tells a story to say the least. Yes, life changes in one second especially when you least expect it! 

Well the good news first. Six days after I wrote the last blog entry, I actually manage to get out for the first time in 21 months, last outing being December 2019! An unexpected  opportunity arose with a new found friend Carole from Crewe, who I have been in contact for a couple of months. Whilst chatting with each other a couple days previously, I realise I had an opportunity to meet Carole during an afternoon and by chance Carole was free too. So we arrange to meet for tea and scones in a Garden Centre near Nantwich. Anyway, the day arrived and attempting to decide what to wear, along with remembering to apply make up too, the morning proved to be a challenge but eventually outfit chosen, make up applied and off I went. As for the outfit, well went for bootleg jeans, smock type top, short jacket, small heels and of course hangbag too for more of the everyday / casual look. 

After a slightly longer journey than I anticipated, I finally met Carole at the Garden Centre were we had a nice afternoon tea including sandwiches along with a good natter getting to know more about each other. Much to our surprised we had a number of things in common and along learning more about each others past. Soon enough, time flies when enjoying good company, it was time to say our farewells and head home, but not before agreed to meet again sometime in the future. At that time, I was thinking, at last I’m out again and won’t be long before another outing would be on the cards! 

Now this is were the title of the thread comes into play! A few days after my outing, my and M.R’s lives were changed due to an unexpected out of the blue family emergency which would change our circumstances for the short to medium term with priorities were now firmly placed elsewhere including caring duties! Our lives were completely flipped upside down especially we had been thinking we were beginning to turn the corner and things were now looking a bit better especially with the lifting of Covid restrictions, looking forward to our retirement and thought the worst was over after what happened earlier in the year. How silly to think like that and things now got worst instead. How life can be so cruel, but many many people in the world know that feeling anyway but you always think never happens to you. However, its life were it plays to your dealt hand of cards instead. 

So what has above to do with me as KD? Simply, the change of circumstances along more important change priorities means future outings are very much at a premium and realistically be next year before I may be able to consider an outing again. Sadly this puts meeting new found friends on hold for a while longer with the only possibily of an outing would be at short notice assuming I have a friend to meet with my past experience, highly unlikely it would happen. Strangely this opportunity arose a few weeks ago and met Carole again but more by good fortune than anything else. Another enjoyable outing never the less but I am not sure I will be so lucky again. 

So once again, things outside of my control dictate my femme life and it could be sometime before I make an appearance again. However, my (our) proirities are more importantly elsewhere and always remain so until back to some sort of normality. It could be a while! 

September 2021 - Going out?

It is now September and Covid 19 ‘lockdowns’ lifted so a sense of normality is coming back, well almost as it more like a ‘new’ normality. The harsh reality that Covid 19 has not gone away, still very much around and as I write this entry, the virus is on the increase again which is no surprise. Yes the Government is relying on vaccine to do its job, i.e. reduce the risk as well as about 85% population now vaccinated. Just leaves the other 15% which for numerous reasons, those people will not get one! Bottom line, we cannot remain in lockdown for ever but not 100% convinced we will not have another lockdown during the winter sometime? In the meantime, the Government and relevant parties now need to crack on with booster Covid jabs as well as the flu jab as delay it anymore will cause numerous issues, including an increase in deaths may be? 

I must admit, by now I thought I would of finally got out at least once if not twice to meet friends but guess, I’m still waiting (a song by Diana Ross I recall)! Oh yes, some past problems have re-surfaced again and its called ‘work’, mmmm no surprise there! Yes, I finally recalled back to work at beginning of August after 16 months on furlough and it was abit of a shock to the system! Consequently, I have decided to make some changes to my working life and this will come to an end next year. This should give more time to more things including being ‘me’! In the meantime, My opportunities getting out once again dominated by work schedules and finding the right time / day to meet friends which currently not crossing paths. Anyway, I am slightly optimistic this may change in the next couple of weeks. Fingers cross.

While there have been lockdowns, I did seek the opportunity to contact ‘new’ girls  and if you read my previous recent entries, you will gather that I have done. With the exception of a couple girls, friends of yesteryear have now become just that ’yesteryear’. As I have written before, I have attempted to maintain some contact with ‘yesteryear’ friends but no joy so I am not waiting around anymore and will now attempt to meet ‘new’ friends whom seem to have more common interests in what I am looking for. If you unsure what they are, simply friendly, approachable, courteous, good sense of humour, caring and similar tastes / view in the fashion stakes too. Oh yes, happy to meet too. So for the time being I am concentrating on new found contacts and making efforts to get to know each other better rather than seek any more ‘new’ friends. 

My sales on Ebay are still progressing albeit slowly and now thinkning of adding a few more items to be sold in time for winter. Looking at my wardrobe, still have too many clothes, so another sort out on the cards. One thing I have noted my own preference has shifted to towards dresses rather than top / skirt so may be that is where the hit will be? 

Health wise I am fine thankfully but both M.R. and I are still attempting to recover from the ‘void’ from our lives but very sadly we both realise we doubt that we will ever recover from it as everyday there are constant reminders, not just at home but when we go out too. Every now and then, something we see or hear, brings it all  back and more tears are shed in the proccess. God it is sad and it emotionally hurts, life can be so cruel! 

Until the next time, when hopefully I have news of an outing or two, all stay safe. x

June 2021 - Moving On?

To answer the last question from my previous entry, it is actually no! Still waiting to get out but may be that now be next month or August all being well even under current lockdown restrictions. As I write this, I will assume the Government have decided to extend the current (reduced) restrictions for another four weeks which I think is the right decision. I must admit, this does not affect me as I have no intention in meeting people in groups etc, as for the time being, one to one meets are more than acceptable especially in off peak periods. However, we will wait and see.

As for life in general, things could always be better but of late it has been difficult. Although I touch upon a riddle in the third paragraph of my last entry, things since then have turned as expected but not knowing long it would be and sadly our worst fears have been realised over two weeks ago. Just say, it has been emotionally heartbreaking and we (M.R. and I) have now a big big void in our lives and life will never be the same again. Currently I find this situation challenging on a daily basis with some days better than others, not knowing what the right thing I should be doing at any given moment, as my thoughts keep drifting away! In the meantime, I am also recovering from a recent small operation were it meant maintaining my distance from people, although that is easy enough in the current climate. Regardless my recovery is going better than expected.

On the Ebay front, a number of clothes have been sold already which is additional pocket money for the future but still have some clothes still waiting for bids. Time and patience, they will go eventually. In the meantime, I have been going through my past photo pictures, deleting numerous unwanted pictures but also coming across pictures that I had completley forgotten about, especially from over ten years ago! Some are now appearing on my photo stream in consequence. I must admit, a handful of them were better than expected and even I think they look at least OK if not good! 

Still in contact with my friends but we feel now, we are finally getting closer to meeting finally. Mmmm long overdue and I cannot wait now. Will I remember how to get ready, apply my make-up and look presentable? Hopefully I will but I imagine, it will take me a initially bit longer to get ready before the nerves start shaking before leaving the front door! I’ve forgotten what that was like! 

Well that is enough for this entry and may be good news will be written in my next entry, as and when. 

April 2021 - Sixteen Months!

It has been four months since my last entry and also my first one for this year too! However, not much to write about so I decided to wait to make an entry.

The title of the entry is ‘Sixteen Months’ and why, if you have not figured it out already? Simply that is how long since I have been me and gone out too. Ask yourself the question, would you think at that time it be that long before you could get out again and the answer simply is no. Wow! However, with the exception of the people in China (attempting to cover it up and a lot to answer for too), no one knew what was coming and how it would change everyone’s lives for the future. So how life has changed along with the thousands upon thousands of lives lost in consequence too. The world is a different place now. 

As we all know, everyday life has been put on hold and social mixing of any sort has not been the done thing. This has hit me (and others) in an unexpected way but that I have accepted as there are more important things in life to concern yourself with. Regardless, it has been frustrating but is there now light at the end of very long tunnel. Pandemic restrictions are gradually being lifted as the everyday situation improves along with over half of the UK polulation has now had a vaccine jab of one sort or another which helps to reduce the risk of getting serious Covid 19. Does this mean I am any nearer in getting out again soon? May be yes, may be no, as I still think we need to wait until end of May to make sure that there are no hiccups and we don’t go backwards again. Fingers cross, it continues to improve. Regardless, it cannot come soon enough to be me and get out again.

In the meantime, other aspects of my life have been different, difficult and sometimes quiet too. Here is not the place to write about it unfortunately but I have had better days on occasions along with knowing that something is going to happen in the future is going to hit M.R. and myself very hard emotionally, something neither of us are looking forward too but in the meantime make the most of what we have on a daily basis. Sorry for the riddle but here is not the place to write about it. Also with the current restrictions which are getting better, our main priority is see our family again, something like countless other people have been waiting to do. Hopefully in mid May this will all change, fingers cross. 

Currently I remain in contact with three experience girls on a regular basis, strangely none of whom I have met yet but we are hoping to put that right in the summer. They have been my saviour and keeping me sane too, therefore it has been appreciated for your contact too. Thank you. 

I was in regular contact with another girl but she has not communicated for two months but I have figured she needs to sort herself out in her head and sadly I don’t have any more patience for her. So if you are reading this, then please don’t contact me. To be honest this girl has become the straw that finally broke the camels back. I have always had time for ‘new’ girls, those who are commencing their journey and was always happy to offer encouragement, advice, my experience and information, along with ultimately offering to meet them. However over the last two / three years, it has become a source of frustration with the girls you are wishing to help, they tend to have ‘reasons’, some genuine. some not for wanting to get progress. The reality though, most are not prepared to think for them selves, think outside the box and hoping you have all the answers to their problems. Of course I don’t but I have now had enough of ‘new / beginner’ girl timewasters. So decided for once and for all, time for me to get on with MY life what is left of it as I am not getting younger for sure! 

Finally, my wardrobe is slowly getting smaller as I have now had a good sort out. Some clothes going on Ebay, with other clothes will be on their way to a local charity shop. How many clothes does a girl need? I have far too many and I can only wear one item at a time anyway. 

Well that is enough for now, not sure when my next entry will be but could be a few weeks / months, just no idea. Regardless hopefully by the time of the next entry, I have been out and met a friend or two.