March 2020 - Somethings do change sadly!

Woke up this morning and much to my surprise, I received a message from a girl asking if I be interested in going out tomorrow night, yes to the Village, Manchester. Well I been asking to get out and here is an opportunity! But guess what, I’m presented with this and sudden I have doubts within myself in wanting to get out afterall. Why and what is going on? Do or don’t I though? 

Regardless, today is not a good day sadly. Both M.R. and I are animal lovers and consequently for most of our lives, we had cats around who have left us with many happy memories. We always had two / three cats and recently that had been no different! Unfortunately, a month ago our female car ‘W’ passed away in her sleep age 15 years, she was the noisey one in the house and ain’t it quiet! So we were left with two males, one age 10 ’T’ and the other age 18 ‘G’ but sadly just two hours ago, we had to put ‘G’ asleep as his quality of life was not getting any better. ‘G’ was the most pacid cat we ever had, would not harm a flee, always looking for a stroke and a cuddle, did he get them, of course. Now he is no more and just buried him with ‘W’ in the back garden. Yes its raw and it hurts too. I’m sure we will get over it in time, we humans always do but thank you ’G’ for your love, kindness and happy memories. Now we concentrate on ’T’ who is now on his own and of course our wonderful dog ‘H’ too. Regardless losing two cats in a month is a little difficult at the moment. 

Just makes you realise, how cruel life can be and who are the worst ones, human beings of course, some who show no love, no compassion, give spite, unforgiving, are selfish, the list is endless yet animals are not like this. It does make you wonder though who are the real ‘animals’?

In the meantime, I have still an invite to consider but has fate intervene yet again in the light of today’s sad event? Now is not the time to consider but it does really make me wonder whether KD is meant to be anymore. 

March 2020 - Not much changed

Well a belated happy new year to all and hopefully you have had a good start to it too. Unfortunately for me, the start of year and now its March has been the worst start since KD has been going out! In simple terms no appearance no outings and nothing seems to changing in the near future either! 

Since my last blog entry, I have had one outing, mid December and that was to Carla’s (Cheshire Dressers) xmas party were about 20/30 girls received invites to have a get together for xmas. In the end about 15 girls turned up wih Carla being an excellent host. It was nice to see some of the other girls (from different parts of the country too) and a good evening was had. However, the usual thing happened at the end of the evening, yes we must keep in contact and arrange an outing. No guesses what has happened! Regardless that has been my only outing. Since then and within the last two weeks, unfortunately I was suppose to meet Carla last week but although I have attempted to contact her, first to firm the day was OK and the time too but sadly no response and same has happened with follow up communications. For some totaly unknown reason, Carla looks she does not want to contact me and I have no idea why. Any guesses anyone because I am none the wiser. 

In mid January I received three invites to go out at the end of the month, all with a few days of each other and I was looking forward to them too. Mmmm I thought at last, wear some of new dresses I purchase in the recent sales. First outing was to meet Nickie from Northern Ireland who comes over twice a year for the Northern Concord events. As the time was getting nearer, the dreaded virus hit me again but hoping i be ok for the meet with Nickie! Yes I met Nickie but I had to go in ‘bob’ mode as clearly I could not disguise my discomfort and no choice but to go as I had on last occasion (September) cancelled at the last moment due to ill health and was not going to do it again, so Nickie was ok with me coming as ‘bob’ instead. Fortunately a nice evening, meet and chat was had with Nickie looking nice and being sympathic with my health issue. I must admit it was strange for me meeting another girl in 'bob' mode but what choice did I have in the circumstances as I could not cancel again. 

Sadly my health got worst over the next few days and had no choice but to cancel my other two meets. Strangely after about 10 days or so, again after seeing a consultant on my follow up health appointment I was ok to get out. Mmmm but hey ho, nothing doing and still remains like that now.  This is even after I posted a couple of messages on two forums seeking new friends / meets but very little response sadly especially locally as such. Now I have no idea what to do for the future and in some ways, do I have one? I’m losing the will to be KD again unfortunately yet I enjoy being me and wearing my lovely clothes! What a sad situation to be in and I have tried too. 

Well that is the lot for now - will there be another blog entry, who knows!!!